Guess who's back!

Hey! I think I want to start writing my blog again since now it's easier to write since I have download the blogger application in my iPhone & I will have more fun activities with my beautiful Angels. Welcome back to my blog. The ending journey of 2011 and new journey of 2012. Bon voyage 2011. May Allah bless us with good year ahead. Insyaallah

Farewell 2011

Salang Trip

With these Beautiful Ladies

Hey peep, its been a long time since i didn't write / update my blog. Followers! If you noticed yea! i deleted some latest posts! Its because of some reasons thou. One of it because of there's a psycho following me privately.

Well I tell you what more interesting than that. End of October 2010 the first time ever I took bus Bukit Jalil departed at 12.00am to Mersing approximately arrived around 4.00am at Mersing, we (the whole gang) go by ferry which took us about 1 and a half hour to get out numb but in Salang Tioman. WOw! the bus driver was Nasty! drive so damn fast and scary, I just cross my finger, praying we'll be arrive safe & sound and trust the bus driver. Ya ya, i know Im not with a good condition still taking medication but still stubborn Zetty wanna go!
At first I was pretty much afraid to take bus. Hell yeah! yeas, its because 1st i never take bus for a long journey except for school bus and once I took bus from uitm lendu to KL, and that was what? last couples of years back.


Man! I was amazed with Allah creature. It was so beautiful!

We arrived at Salang around 10 a.m. We took shower then nap. My room occupancy for four which are; Syima. Farisya, Joy and me. They were the craziest roommate ever. This crazy people are my bestfriends and the most wonderful thing that WE ARE SINGLE!! woot woot.. well except for me. Yaiks! i have someone who accompanied. He was a wonderful gift from God and I want him to know that I appreciate him so much.
Every time when I sees him I get to smile with a simple pleasure. How wonderful is that! you tell me. *wink* I got a feeling, that to night gonna be a good night! hahaha...



We get ourselves ready to grab something for our hungry grumpy tummy. Lunch, then all of us walk along the beach. Magnificent!nice view, we took thousands2 photos especially my cam-whore roommates. haha.. after we went back to our respective room. lol.. because its started to rain.

Well, its pretty bored waiting this sleeping monster. They sleep and I just took a nap. well, went to the other side of chalet to hang out with other. It was raining on and off.. well, after chilling in front of the chalet, some of us decided to go swimming at the beach, blue and green sea. Awesome! Just the four of us. Im so ashamed my leg cramped twice OMG! Lucky I have my super hero saved me.. Hahaha... Well, it never happened before thou. I've been swimming since forever, since I was young. Wow that was the first time it happened, but wonder why it has to happened when Im with him. LOL.. pretty funny thou. After a while we were in the sea, rain started again. Well, i was pretty tired and went back to chalet and get ready for the night. Dinner and then chill at the bar along the beach.

After dinner and about to hit the bar.

Ok. I will update on the next day on the 2nd day of the trip. I got to go now :)

Pusara Bonda

I tak tau berdosa atau tidak ambil gambar pusara ibundan. Yang pasti i terlalu rindu pada dia. Mama miss you badly< how i wish i can just hold your hand for a minute pun jadi la..
On the first day raya (also first raya without her), first thing in the morning we all took bath and then tunggu papa balik dari solat sunat aidilfitri.
Pergh, nak pi kubur Kota damansara pun jammed. Tapi we all sampai awal, so ade lah parking.
I tak dapat nak baca yassin during the visit, tapi nasib baik masa Ramadhan dah ziarah kubur mama couple on times untuk baca yassin...
Dan while waiting for my siblings baca yassin, menatap kubur mama buat I rase sebak, and along the time i kat situ air mata pun tak henti turun.
One of the reason sebab i failed to fulfill my promise that i gave her. I'm so lost without you. I have no one to anguish my feelings. Nothing compares u. You so understanding, u gave me strength, u motivate me, u made me who i am now.

Ma, no matter what, you know I'm a person who hold my words and promises, I willtake a good care of the lil ones & the promise ive made to you one fine day. Insyallah. I find someone who I fancy here.. One fine day mummy. I know how much u care..
Im sorry if he's not the one. He's not good for me. I can remember that munafik face still macam mane dia janji-janji die masa mama sakit. herm...
he does shits less 100 days kenduri mama and he done with me on genap 4th month mama pegi. But I still bersyukur that it happened now then later.
Alhamdulillah i take it well, and I know Allah have better plan for me. The guy I fancy he's way too different (few guys) lol, only one caught my heart. he's a nice guy. :)

So after ke kubur kota damansara, we all pergi ke kubur ss16 pj.. Ziarah pusara Tok Zainal, Tok Khatijah and My Auntie.. Semua belah mama.

Balik dari kubur we all siap pakai baju raya and pack nak balik johor, before to johor we all singgah to KLANG... wwaaaaaa! excited!! baru dapat makan ketupat rendang, sambal sotong, lodeh.. Ya Allah.. first time beraya kat rumah org. Slalu untie yang datang rumah, now mama takde we all pulak pegi rumah die.

After that we al semua Balik kampung wooo wooo wooo balik kampung..hati girang... haha head to jb....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semau, Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Falling stars Buka at Bangsar

It was a great night with friends at Bangsar after buka puasa at Madam Kwan,
That was the last day break-fast with Nurul Ness and 2nd last with Noury.

Treat our Wednesday with "pink day" oh no! ice cream again.. sweet! :)~
We shared.. sharing is caring... lol...



ice ice baby!

Was such a wonderful night with friendssss...
loving you people.. thank you for sharing!..
im looking forward on the next chapter from Mr.Ad course module..

Walau

Here we go again...
Am going to watch performance this Friday at Avenue K with my best buddy....
Just to hear live...
Love the song so much....

below are the lyrics enjoy....
If you wanna here check it on youtube... ;) wink

Walau by Loudspeaker

Aku, di dalam dilema ini

oh di alam fantasi,

mencintai diri mu

kamu, tak pernah hendak mengerti apa yang ku rasa ini,

oh tentang diri mu

woh baby, baby, baby, kau lah segalanya bagi ku...

Ku mendambarkan cinta mu,

walau kan terus diam membisu

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

Apa yang ku rasakan di hati ini..

woo.woo..

saat ketika kita sedang bercinta,

oh alangkah indah nya dunia ini

namun selepas ku lihat kau bersama si dia

oh bertapa ngilunya hati ini

wo oh.. oh baby, baby,baby kau lah segalanya bagi ku...

Ku mendambarkan cinta mu,

walau kan terus diam membisu

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

Apa yang ku rasakan di hati ini..

Ku mendambarkan cinta mu,

walau kan terus diam membisu

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

Apa yang ku rasakan di hati ini..

woowoooo...

Ku mencintai diri mu

walau kau meniggalkan aku,

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

apa yang kurasakan di hati...

You WON!

Applause.

I hope you satisfied now because you WON!...
You wanna see me lose, I am down on my knees...
You want to see me broken heart, now my heart is bleeding,
You think this is the drama thank you for watching.

Finally Gone and Pretty Pain

Dead and Gone............................

With tears, heartache, no hopes and betrayed in my chest , in my head, in my mind.

Perhaps it was a very long way Ive been through the journey, finally its gone.
I had put efforts, time, loves, care, my day in and day out for you. Some tiny thing I just want u to noticed and look on it.
(sometimes i wonder why cant you just leave me happy before if you wants to do all this towards the end)

I had terrible pain on my right chest yesterday it, feels like somebody has stab my chest with a very sharp knife. and now i know whats the meaning of 'bleeding love'. damn f**king hurt. (yank... i sakit jantung)
For my family sake, i don't want to make another mistake.
Before I realized, it was just another rough time that am going through after my mom pass away.
I need to save my life before I drown.
Somebody save me!!!! *shouting!

If I could make things right I just want to be with you. U know that all i ever wanted is to be with you in my whole life. It was my dream. Years! years~ i've been wanting it, waiting it.
but nothing I could do if you never wants to change.
After all what you did to me, i was patient, so much of it in my heart, swallowed.
And now when it has burst,
I don't feel safe like before when I'm with you compared before, I felt so secured.
Now, the mole is in the house, I just lost all the trust and take years to gain it back.
Hence, i wonder why you still put the blame on me?

Mark my words, nobody can hang on with you if you continues behaving like this. Please change. Not for me, not for your family nor your friends, but for you!

You are the reason why Im doing this. You are the reason of why we are going through this.
Maybe people sees that I was hoping you to change, but only me and yourselves knows better.

Something came across my mind ; the moment that we had fight and I bought the tickets for boat sight seeing at the lake, it was so wonderful and beautiful. But time for me to deal with you is over.
As i always told you "If you want me, you work hard"! *you know what it referring to.
I had enough being hurt by you, empty promises, hopes and I don't deserve to be treated like that.

Moment for separated actually its the best time for us to take a rest on the relationship. Take time to realized what we had missing, NOT making another stupid mistake. (Sumpah! i wont forget how dare you do all those shits to me) seems like you are not afraid of GOD!

One day you will feel what I am feeling. The greatest tortured of all.