Journey of My Life

Guess who's back!

2011-12-22T21:37:00.001-08:00

Hey! I think I want to start writing my blog again since now it's easier to write since I have download the blogger application in my iPhone & I will have more fun activities with my beautiful Angels. Welcome back to my blog. The ending journey of 2011 and new journey of 2012. Bon voyage 2011. May Allah bless us with good year ahead. Insyaallah

Farewell 2011

Salang Trip

2010-11-10T00:43:00.000-08:00

With these Beautiful Ladies

Hey peep, its been a long time since i didn't write / update my blog. Followers! If you noticed yea! i deleted some latest posts! Its because of some reasons thou. One of it because of there's a psycho following me privately.

Well I tell you what more interesting than that. End of October 2010 the first time ever I took bus Bukit Jalil departed at 12.00am to Mersing approximately arrived around 4.00am at Mersing, we (the whole gang) go by ferry which took us about 1 and a half hour to get out numb but in Salang Tioman. WOw! the bus driver was Nasty! drive so damn fast and scary, I just cross my finger, praying we'll be arrive safe & sound and trust the bus driver. Ya ya, i know Im not with a good condition still taking medication but still stubborn Zetty wanna go!
At first I was pretty much afraid to take bus. Hell yeah! yeas, its because 1st i never take bus for a long journey except for school bus and once I took bus from uitm lendu to KL, and that was what? last couples of years back.

Man! I was amazed with Allah creature. It was so beautiful!

We arrived at Salang around 10 a.m. We took shower then nap. My room occupancy for four which are; Syima. Farisya, Joy and me. They were the craziest roommate ever. This crazy people are my bestfriends and the most wonderful thing that WE ARE SINGLE!! woot woot.. well except for me. Yaiks! i have someone who accompanied. He was a wonderful gift from God and I want him to know that I appreciate him so much.
Every time when I sees him I get to smile with a simple pleasure. How wonderful is that! you tell me. *wink* I got a feeling, that to night gonna be a good night! hahaha...

We get ourselves ready to grab something for our hungry grumpy tummy. Lunch, then all of us walk along the beach. Magnificent!nice view, we took thousands2 photos especially my cam-whore roommates. haha.. after we went back to our respective room. lol.. because its started to rain.

Well, its pretty bored waiting this sleeping monster. They sleep and I just took a nap. well, went to the other side of chalet to hang out with other. It was raining on and off.. well, after chilling in front of the chalet, some of us decided to go swimming at the beach, blue and green sea. Awesome! Just the four of us. Im so ashamed my leg cramped twice OMG! Lucky I have my super hero saved me.. Hahaha... Well, it never happened before thou. I've been swimming since forever, since I was young. Wow that was the first time it happened, but wonder why it has to happened when Im with him. LOL.. pretty funny thou. After a while we were in the sea, rain started again. Well, i was pretty tired and went back to chalet and get ready for the night. Dinner and then chill at the bar along the beach.

After dinner and about to hit the bar.

Ok. I will update on the next day on the 2nd day of the trip. I got to go now :)

Pusara Bonda

2010-09-16T19:15:00.001-07:00

I tak tau berdosa atau tidak ambil gambar pusara ibundan. Yang pasti i terlalu rindu pada dia. Mama miss you badly< how i wish i can just hold your hand for a minute pun jadi la..
On the first day raya (also first raya without her), first thing in the morning we all took bath and then tunggu papa balik dari solat sunat aidilfitri.
Pergh, nak pi kubur Kota damansara pun jammed. Tapi we all sampai awal, so ade lah parking.
I tak dapat nak baca yassin during the visit, tapi nasib baik masa Ramadhan dah ziarah kubur mama couple on times untuk baca yassin...
Dan while waiting for my siblings baca yassin, menatap kubur mama buat I rase sebak, and along the time i kat situ air mata pun tak henti turun.
One of the reason sebab i failed to fulfill my promise that i gave her. I'm so lost without you. I have no one to anguish my feelings. Nothing compares u. You so understanding, u gave me strength, u motivate me, u made me who i am now.

Ma, no matter what, you know I'm a person who hold my words and promises, I willtake a good care of the lil ones & the promise ive made to you one fine day. Insyallah. I find someone who I fancy here.. One fine day mummy. I know how much u care..
Im sorry if he's not the one. He's not good for me. I can remember that munafik face still macam mane dia janji-janji die masa mama sakit. herm...
he does shits less 100 days kenduri mama and he done with me on genap 4th month mama pegi. But I still bersyukur that it happened now then later.
Alhamdulillah i take it well, and I know Allah have better plan for me. The guy I fancy he's way too different (few guys) lol, only one caught my heart. he's a nice guy. :)

So after ke kubur kota damansara, we all pergi ke kubur ss16 pj.. Ziarah pusara Tok Zainal, Tok Khatijah and My Auntie.. Semua belah mama.

Balik dari kubur we all siap pakai baju raya and pack nak balik johor, before to johor we all singgah to KLANG... wwaaaaaa! excited!! baru dapat makan ketupat rendang, sambal sotong, lodeh.. Ya Allah.. first time beraya kat rumah org. Slalu untie yang datang rumah, now mama takde we all pulak pegi rumah die.

After that we al semua Balik kampung wooo wooo wooo balik kampung..hati girang... haha head to jb....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semau, Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Falling stars Buka at Bangsar

2010-09-06T23:02:00.000-07:00

It was a great night with friends at Bangsar after buka puasa at Madam Kwan,
That was the last day break-fast with Nurul Ness and 2nd last with Noury.

Treat our Wednesday with "pink day" oh no! ice cream again.. sweet! :)~
We shared.. sharing is caring... lol...

ice ice baby!

Was such a wonderful night with friendssss...
loving you people.. thank you for sharing!..
im looking forward on the next chapter from Mr.Ad course module..

Walau

2010-08-24T20:41:00.000-07:00

Here we go again...
Am going to watch performance this Friday at Avenue K with my best buddy....
Just to hear live...
Love the song so much....

below are the lyrics enjoy....
If you wanna here check it on youtube... ;) wink

Walau by Loudspeaker

Aku, di dalam dilema ini

oh di alam fantasi,

mencintai diri mu

kamu, tak pernah hendak mengerti apa yang ku rasa ini,

oh tentang diri mu

woh baby, baby, baby, kau lah segalanya bagi ku...

Ku mendambarkan cinta mu,

walau kan terus diam membisu

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

Apa yang ku rasakan di hati ini..

woo.woo..

saat ketika kita sedang bercinta,

oh alangkah indah nya dunia ini

namun selepas ku lihat kau bersama si dia

oh bertapa ngilunya hati ini

wo oh.. oh baby, baby,baby kau lah segalanya bagi ku...

Ku mendambarkan cinta mu,

walau kan terus diam membisu

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

Apa yang ku rasakan di hati ini..

Ku mendambarkan cinta mu,

walau kan terus diam membisu

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

Apa yang ku rasakan di hati ini..

woowoooo...

Ku mencintai diri mu

walau kau meniggalkan aku,

meski kau tak pernah mengerti,

apa yang kurasakan di hati...

You WON!

2010-08-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

Applause.

I hope you satisfied now because you WON!...
You wanna see me lose, I am down on my knees...
You want to see me broken heart, now my heart is bleeding,
You think this is the drama thank you for watching.

Finally Gone and Pretty Pain

2010-08-17T20:48:00.001-07:00

Dead and Gone............................

With tears, heartache, no hopes and betrayed in my chest , in my head, in my mind.

Perhaps it was a very long way Ive been through the journey, finally its gone.
I had put efforts, time, loves, care, my day in and day out for you. Some tiny thing I just want u to noticed and look on it.
(sometimes i wonder why cant you just leave me happy before if you wants to do all this towards the end)

I had terrible pain on my right chest yesterday it, feels like somebody has stab my chest with a very sharp knife. and now i know whats the meaning of 'bleeding love'. damn f**king hurt. (yank... i sakit jantung)
For my family sake, i don't want to make another mistake.
Before I realized, it was just another rough time that am going through after my mom pass away.
I need to save my life before I drown.
Somebody save me!!!! *shouting!

If I could make things right I just want to be with you. U know that all i ever wanted is to be with you in my whole life. It was my dream. Years! years~ i've been wanting it, waiting it.
but nothing I could do if you never wants to change.
After all what you did to me, i was patient, so much of it in my heart, swallowed.
And now when it has burst,
I don't feel safe like before when I'm with you compared before, I felt so secured.
Now, the mole is in the house, I just lost all the trust and take years to gain it back.
Hence, i wonder why you still put the blame on me?

Mark my words, nobody can hang on with you if you continues behaving like this. Please change. Not for me, not for your family nor your friends, but for you!

You are the reason why Im doing this. You are the reason of why we are going through this.
Maybe people sees that I was hoping you to change, but only me and yourselves knows better.

Something came across my mind ; the moment that we had fight and I bought the tickets for boat sight seeing at the lake, it was so wonderful and beautiful. But time for me to deal with you is over.
As i always told you "If you want me, you work hard"! *you know what it referring to.
I had enough being hurt by you, empty promises, hopes and I don't deserve to be treated like that.

Moment for separated actually its the best time for us to take a rest on the relationship. Take time to realized what we had missing, NOT making another stupid mistake. (Sumpah! i wont forget how dare you do all those shits to me) seems like you are not afraid of GOD!

One day you will feel what I am feeling. The greatest tortured of all.

Given & wrote for My Soul

2010-08-12T22:33:00.000-07:00

Im Writing This

Sometimes a man’s mind and tongue
seem disconnected.
My mind realizes your wonderfulness,
but my tongue might fail to tell you.
Maybe, since my eyes and brain
see how very obvious
your lovely, endearing qualities are,
my tongue thinks the other way round and
I don’t need to let you know.
In case there is any doubt
about what I am thinking and feeling,
I am writing it down for you:
I always think
you are the prettiest, smartest,
most wonderful, kindest,
most lovable girl
in all the world.
I want to hug, kiss, love
and adore you forever.
Please try to have patience
with the negligence of my tongue.
I am working to keep it in the loop better.

Dia Mengajar Ku

2010-08-12T00:55:00.000-07:00

Walaupun ia kecil, kehadirannya amat besar & bermakna...
Mungkin I tak pernah nampak tapi I dapat rase.
I nak DIA tau yang I hargai DIA. I pernah tunjuk & I pernah beritau.
Kalau i boleh tolak warna yang indah tu, tentu I tak dapar rase nikmat nya..
Tapi kalau i miliki keindahan itu, I takut tuhan pinjamkan nya sangat sementara...
ambil DIA sebelum I bersedia...
I takut jatuh lagi, i takut nak merangkak semula.
I takut sakit dan I takut gila.....

DIA ajar I untuk Bahagia... DIA buat I takut derita....

I harap I pilih jalan yang betul sebab I sayang DIA....

You Changed Me!

2010-08-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

Oh My God!.........

You are the reason ' I am who I am now'

I saw us grow old with wrinkle

I saw us through the hard time

I saw us with happiness

I saw our childrens

I saw lights in your eyes

I saw you guided me

I saw your sacrifice, I saw you chasing me, I saw you and nobody but you.

Just by the way you made me feel.. The way you looked at me.. There's something about you. Its shows me. In side of you is me.
I don't mind to be poor, I don't mind to leave my existing life. I don't mind to sacrifice.
All I ever wanted is just to be with you in the world and in after world.

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2010-08-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to all Muslims in the world. May this Ramadhan brings us more happiness, knowledge, wealth and bring ourselves near to Allah. Im so thankful and greatfull that I am here today celebrating this Ramadhan with my beloved family and friends. Perhaps this year could bring me sunshine.... I believe Allah always have better plan for us.

I will try my best to fast and read the Al-Quran. Insyallah...

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah...
Thank you Ya Allah...

Dear Mama, I miss you so much. Im glad I was there with you celebrated Ramadhan. It feel so different when you were around. May Allah placed you with Good Religions peoples out there. I just want you to know that I love you and nothings compare. Loosing you makes me learn more and more. But I know Allah loves you more than we do. Without fail mama, everyday my prayers always goes to you first. I love you I love you and I am so much missing you. You are my inspiration, you guided me with your advices and you are my hero. You are the reason I am still breathing and standing because you are my strength.

Al-Fatehah....

Big Girl Don't Cry...

2010-08-04T02:16:00.000-07:00

Holla people,

After so long, Im back with the art of writing. Here is the place where I can write about my feelings, to share and to get opinions, comments and Ideas to help me as a normal growing up lady to go through life.

Last Monday 2nd August 2010 was my mummy's 100th days of death. Al-Fatehah.
But I felt another new death has came to me. The death of feelings that so impossible to make it alive.

No you and more us. I just wish that I'll get rid of you in my life.
Im speaking out of anger. Im speaking with no trust, Im speaking with my ego rise.
Actually you are fooling yourself by fooling me.
Perhaps u dont know that I have instinct, I have brain and I heart.

Arrgghhhh... Im still not over you. Stop pulling me.

Somebody out there LOVES me more

2010-08-04T02:12:00.000-07:00

LOVE'S DEMISE
MY LOVE FOR YOU WAS ONCE FULL OF LIFE,
BUT AS TIME WENT ON, AND MONTHS PASSED BY, MY LOVE FOR YOU SLOWLY WITHERED, AND BEGAN 2 DIE,
THOUGH YOU SAW THE DANGEROUS WAY THINGS WERE GOING, YOU CONTINUED YOUR LIES, STOPPING OUR LOVE FROM GROWING,
EACH LIE BECAME A STAB WOUND 2 MY FEELINGS,
THERE WAS NO TRUTH IN YOU,... SO FOR ME THERE WAS NO HEALING,
JUST CONTINUOUS BLEEDING FROM THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU,
THOUGH YOU LIED ABOUT YOUR LOVE... MY LOVE FOR YOU WAS TRUE,
I SAW DEATH COMING,.. BUT THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO,
BECAUSE I WAS IN LOVE WITH DEATH,... DEATH LOOKED JUST LIKE YOU,
AFTER REVIVING MY LOVE SO MANY TIMES I BECAME WEARY,
MEANWHILE YOUR LIES WERE BECOMING MORE AND MORE UNNECESSARY,
THOUGH I THOUGHT I COULD LOVE YOU THROUGH THE LIES,
I REALIZED I WAS WRONG EVERYTIME I HEARD MY HEART'S CRIES,
YOU'RE THE REASON I WOULD HAVE 2 LEAVE,
YOU'RE THE REASON MY EMOTIONS GRIEVE,
YOU WERE THE ONE WHO CAUSED MY ANGER TO RISE,
I HOPE YOUR HAPPY, CAUSE YOU ARE THE CAUSE OF MY LOVES' DEMISE

Mummy Be Strong

2010-03-13T06:56:00.000-08:00

Hey People,

I’m writing here, now, next to my mama at hospital. She is sleeping next to me now and i have my lil sis Nelly accompany mama and me. I’m at PPUM censer ward (wad onkologi). Next to mama there’s a lady slidely younger than my mom battling her life as well. This evening as when I reached here and look at the patients, I realized how lucky am I to know that mama is not as bad as other people in the ward. The lady next to mama has removed both of he breast and now having both of her lungs are having problem.

Alhamdulillah it is satisfying for me to see mama sleeping next to me. I keep aware and make sure she still breathing. Every 2 or 3 minutes sure I will take a peak to see how mama’s doing.

I can hear a Chinese lady in front of mama bed gasping for air even she is wearing the oxygen to support her breathing. Too much of sounds here. I can even hear one of the patient here moaning, nurses talking to each other, somebody ‘mengaji’. If Anybody who’s here now with me at these moment surely will feel what I feeling now.

Ya Allah please give mama strength to fight the disease. I know mama is strong to fight this, along with prayers and blessed from Allah she will still be with papa, my 7 siblings and me. Eventhou I am scared, I have to be strong, I cant show mama that I am weak, it such ashamed if she knew that I can’t accept all this while she can, I even have to show to my lil sis and lil bro that I am string. I don’t want them to fall.

I believe and I have faith that mama will fight the disease and be healthy as before. (I just don’t want to lie to myself) because I will try to accept whatever Task that Allah arranged for my family and me. I believe in HIM.

Mama, how I want you to know that I love you so very much, and I will never stop saying this to you every time I came home or I ‘m leaving home. I just love you without conditions. You are my hero! Go mama! I know you can do it!!

I dedicate this song to you ma.. I love you

Boyz II Men A Song For Mama Lyrics

You taught me everything

And everything you've given me

I always keep it inside

You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything

Or anyone that I can be

And it just wouldn't feel right

If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me

When skies were grey

Whenever I was down

You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be what you have been to me

You will always be you always will be the girl

In my life for all times

Chorus:

Mama, mama you know I love you

Oh you know I love you

Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like

Tears from the starsMama,

I just want you to know

Lovin' you is like food to my soul

Yes it is (5x)

You're always down for me

Have always been around for me even when

I was badYou showed me right from my wrong

Yes you didAnd you took up for me

When everyone was downin' me

You always did understand

You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times

Looking back when I was so afraid

And then you come to me

And say to me I can face anything

And no one else can doWhat you have done for me

You'll always be

You will always be the girl in my life

Chorus

Never gonna go a day without you

Fills me up just thinking of youI'll never go a day without my mama

Chorus

Yes you are

CNY Holiday

2010-02-16T22:24:00.000-08:00

It takes like One and a half hour journey form my house and all the way from the Highway is jam! But we are so called obey with the rule, we just follow the emergency road from Bangi until Seremban Where the traffic a start to move fast (WARNING! Kids don’t try this at any highway). Well well… Here was the place I spent during my CNY holiday… How great to escaped from the city for a while. Gosh! Great place Allah blessed us with. Alahmdulillah we arrived safe and sound. It was hot and sunny day… but still I spent the evening at the beach before head to the hotel. I swam at the hotel swimming pool during sunset.. Very beautiful day…. Love the place and I love my accompanied. Hey It’s a day before valentine that we don’t even plan to celebrate it. I would love going to the beach again. There is so nothing much to do in KL on, lots of shopping malls closed early on CNY eve, bet because their Yee Sang CNY. My opinion during holiday is the best time to stay in KL indeed. It’s very quiet and road is very clear. I remember on 14th Feb when my sibling and I were about going for breakfast, GOSH! The road is so clear… Federal highway? LDP? Tell me about it. Hope its not too late wishing u people out there Gong Xi Fat Cai! Another TIGER year RrrooorrRRrrr… Wait next year is year of Rabbit! I was born in year of Rabbit!

2010-02-08T18:24:00.000-08:00

This is something about me and no ones ever knew. Life is pretty much complicated and God, He always never fails giving his men tasks yet I am a happy girl stay strong after one thing to another come over and hit my back. People always say that ‘things will never always go on your way’ and I wonder why? Isn’t life supposed to be goes as it planned to be? Obstacles always comes over to ruined the plan and that what we called task from HIM. If we washed away by the task and don’t hit the goal that we already aim for years that we already planned. Shall we give up maybe that’s the sign that God don’t bless on what we planned? Or maybe don’t give up after all it just a task that can teach us along the way?
Im puzzled. Dear Allah, Please show me the right way.
I will take it easy. For sure. The life is mine.
This is me ZETTY living life as blooming flower Daisy...

Confession

2010-02-01T20:01:00.000-08:00

Love is in the air....

Damn it! whats love?

Am I ready? I know its beautiful but one thing foremost I can think now, its going to be a boundries for my actions, activities, behavior, entertainment and lots if things... OMG!

this is crazy..

I want love... But I dont know if I am ready..

I need some advice..

Can I accept it? Should I? I should not? Take it now? Later or never?

Tough Time

2009-11-09T22:51:00.000-08:00

Some people know what I am going through now and some dosent,
Well, at the moment i hide all the feelings I've got since the moment I knew the bad news starts to fly in the air. Im living life as what i am supposed to while deep inside the corner of my heart is breaking & aching.
What am I supposed to do? Should I cry? Just sit and watch whats tomorrows might bring? Leave all to Allah?
I can face through all these, i know i can. How hard Im hited, not much to compare to the people who facing it. I dont know what's she feeling. Im so puzzled.

Dear Allah, please make this things easy, I can't take it if you put me too much.
My heart is tore bit by bit, with all the challenge God gave me, but yet Im still standing.

Dear beloved friends thank you for supporting me.

Missing Nurul

2009-09-17T19:20:00.000-07:00

Cute....

Upin & Ipin aka Nurul & Ainun with my baby sister catcat..

I am so look like a mommy to 3 of u.

I started to Miss Nurul.. Everythime i entered the office and sit at my place, i will see Nurul's face on my right corner eyes. and today as i took glances there its empty, only left her computer..

Nurul i miss u already and I really do. May u have a bright future there & good luck in whatever undertaking. Dont u ever dare to forget me! I will smack u to death if u do.

Ainun dont leave us too. I beg u..

Promise you I will go to Penang soon.. Can lepak at feringi & infornt of the gurney mall during nights. Beach beach beach & mat Salleh.. love em, come to mommy... hahaha..

Back in College

2009-09-17T18:43:00.000-07:00

PTPL College Convocation 2009 at PWTC.
from lest Anis da Bomb, Me & Epy..
I appreciate all the moments, friendship,hardwork & everything we went through togather. Mostly Anis who help me a lot (wake me up with wake up call, reminds me for almost all my assingments, quizes)
I know u worried so much about me & ap, because we are the laziest compared to you. You are the bestest classmate ever. To epy, even we fight a lot, we always against each other because of our diffrent ideas, well actually most of ur brilliant ideas tought me.
I miss the time of us in college together.

Wishing you a Very Happy Eid Mubarak

2009-09-17T18:06:00.000-07:00

I would like to wish you, my family, friends, cousins & my love ones a very Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin.